what a way to end my birthday
it started off really well... like had a wonderful party last night and was super fun and like.we ate alot and laughed alot and made alot of noise... den dre es and tim stayed over and we watched movies and talked and played cards... (of cos timmo was sleeping :s) and yeah. it was a great party... super thank my sis alot and my mother too for organising it... tho i felt abit bad tt din invite my cell members to stay overnight... but not my fault!!! the guys asked if they could... not i ask them one haha. dun think i prefer them to u k... shalom rocks :) anyway, thanks to all the pple hu came and made my birthday party a very fun and enjoyable one! :) and thanks for all the presents and. "interesting" cards... dunno felt abit sad tt none of my teammates remebered but i guess they din noe lah haha. nvm anyway. i had lots of love :) and dre was crappy and pushed cake into my face and now i have a pimple on my nose!! and i blame HIM. hehs. den like we din sleep the whole night only for a while in the morning... den they left at abt 3 den went church! worship was good and the sermon was qt good too i feel... and i din feel like sleeping during the sermon! which is a GOOD thing.dennnn. shalom celebrated my birthday for me which was sweet cos most of them celebrated with me yst liao heh. but yeah. thanks alot dudettes (as tim says) and now im like abit sick of cake haha. but the cakes were niceeeee :) yum yum.
i feel like such a complainer. its a God given opurtunity that i can go for yep to china rite. and befriend the kids there and stuff... den y do i feel so unhappy abt it??? when i was in the car coming home i was going to cry liao and since i came home ive been crying non stop lah. i really really really really really dun want to go... like REALLY alot ok. its so bad rite. and ive really been praying tt God will help me to want to go and like it and have a passion for china. and den i go for meeting today. and guess whos in my grp. ok. tt is really evil rite. but i really dun like tt person. i really shld. REALLY.i would have quit today. or changed grp or something... but for the fact tt i have a job to do and tt jo would be alone if i quit. and also tt pple would ask y. im so glad tt now i have an excuse to not go for the meetings liao.gosh. i cant believe i was looking forward to my birthday so much for it to end this way. mummy was saying tt if i really din like it so much den i shld pull out cos even if i try to act like i want to go and im excited and all i cant pretend like 100% and some of the discontent is sure to seep out. but right now i feel super trapped and forced.its like being in sc all over again lah. i really really hope that it becomes better... i know tt going for a mission trip is all abt God and that the pple im with are not supposed to matter, but i wish i could be going alone. i would rather go alone lah ok.its like when there are pple there tt i cant seem to be able to focus. hiahz. ok nvm. wadeva haha
ooooh. but while i was blogging, got a nice call frm stella! wow. so sweet she called me to say hi and happy birthday... and like pple i really dunno or like nv toked to for super long all remebered and some of my closer frens din... haha oh wells. nvm lah. thanks to all hu did remeber and wish me anyway. love you guys :)
it started off really well... like had a wonderful party last night and was super fun and like.we ate alot and laughed alot and made alot of noise... den dre es and tim stayed over and we watched movies and talked and played cards... (of cos timmo was sleeping :s) and yeah. it was a great party... super thank my sis alot and my mother too for organising it... tho i felt abit bad tt din invite my cell members to stay overnight... but not my fault!!! the guys asked if they could... not i ask them one haha. dun think i prefer them to u k... shalom rocks :) anyway, thanks to all the pple hu came and made my birthday party a very fun and enjoyable one! :) and thanks for all the presents and. "interesting" cards... dunno felt abit sad tt none of my teammates remebered but i guess they din noe lah haha. nvm anyway. i had lots of love :) and dre was crappy and pushed cake into my face and now i have a pimple on my nose!! and i blame HIM. hehs. den like we din sleep the whole night only for a while in the morning... den they left at abt 3 den went church! worship was good and the sermon was qt good too i feel... and i din feel like sleeping during the sermon! which is a GOOD thing.dennnn. shalom celebrated my birthday for me which was sweet cos most of them celebrated with me yst liao heh. but yeah. thanks alot dudettes (as tim says) and now im like abit sick of cake haha. but the cakes were niceeeee :) yum yum.
i feel like such a complainer. its a God given opurtunity that i can go for yep to china rite. and befriend the kids there and stuff... den y do i feel so unhappy abt it??? when i was in the car coming home i was going to cry liao and since i came home ive been crying non stop lah. i really really really really really dun want to go... like REALLY alot ok. its so bad rite. and ive really been praying tt God will help me to want to go and like it and have a passion for china. and den i go for meeting today. and guess whos in my grp. ok. tt is really evil rite. but i really dun like tt person. i really shld. REALLY.i would have quit today. or changed grp or something... but for the fact tt i have a job to do and tt jo would be alone if i quit. and also tt pple would ask y. im so glad tt now i have an excuse to not go for the meetings liao.gosh. i cant believe i was looking forward to my birthday so much for it to end this way. mummy was saying tt if i really din like it so much den i shld pull out cos even if i try to act like i want to go and im excited and all i cant pretend like 100% and some of the discontent is sure to seep out. but right now i feel super trapped and forced.its like being in sc all over again lah. i really really hope that it becomes better... i know tt going for a mission trip is all abt God and that the pple im with are not supposed to matter, but i wish i could be going alone. i would rather go alone lah ok.its like when there are pple there tt i cant seem to be able to focus. hiahz. ok nvm. wadeva haha
ooooh. but while i was blogging, got a nice call frm stella! wow. so sweet she called me to say hi and happy birthday... and like pple i really dunno or like nv toked to for super long all remebered and some of my closer frens din... haha oh wells. nvm lah. thanks to all hu did remeber and wish me anyway. love you guys :)
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